The Battle Continues

Yep! This feels like a battle. A gruesome battle between the old me and the me I want to be.  In others I see, all the time, aspects that I’d like to develop in myself. Clear, Strong, Disciplined, Calm, Giving, Trusting, Loving, Confident, and the list goes on… Yet when I speak to others of my journey they all tell me that they see those aspects in me very profoundly. So why is it that I cannot see them in myself? Why is it I cannot see and Feel my Greatness? Why is it that I seem to be blind and live in a constant state of questions, doubts, fears and confusion, trying to escape and be free? 

I feel I am a bird with a chain around its ankle sitting on the dirt at the bottom of a stone chimney, constantly trying to fly up to the light at the chimney entrance but always wretched back down by the chain that is anchored into the floor. I’m exhausted from trying and failing, trying and failing, trying and failing..  So now I feel it is time to sit. Stop trying and just sit.  Sit, relax and go within. Let go of trying, let go of my disappointments, let go of it all! And just be now. Inner peace is what I desire so inner I go to experience peace. 

It’s like I’ve been trying to fly away from myself. Always looking outwards for the answers or looking to someone to tell me what to do, never trusting my own guidance system. 

Time to turn within to experience the greatness that is me. That I AM.

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15 thoughts on “The Battle Continues

  1. CaroleMasterkey

    I feel your pain. I have been slacking and stumbling. My daughter finally graduated and just got back from Florida. Hoping to get on track again. I wonder if this is just part of growth. Time will tell for us. Have a great week

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    1. masterkeybrony Post author

      Thanks Carole. Yep! It’s all a part of growth as awareness grows:-) Funny cause I wrote it this morning I really expected no comments so it was a real surprise to check and see that a response was there. Thanks heaps. Hope you enjoy your daughter being at home:-) here’s to all our journeys:-)

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  2. Charlottes Masterkey

    Amazing.. and what a journey..
    Yes I truly believe that you got it..
    Stop and listen, listen to yourself, and you inner voice, you know it all, you are born to be you, nobody else can do that..
    But I so know that feeling, sad to say it, but you are not alone..
    But we will get there.. our dreams are too important to let go, not only for us but the whole world..

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    1. masterkeybrony Post author

      Thanks Charlotte. It is a journey. Full on sometimes. Thanks for your wonderful words. We are all in it together and it certainly helps to know you’re not alone… Cheers.x.x.

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  3. Chris

    Thank you for sharing your honesty. I agree with Charlotte, you’ve definitely got it. You are not alone. Just keep asking those questions and listen for those answers within. Reading your post has definitely helped me out, thank you!

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  4. masterkeycskjerpen

    You are a great person and if you were not all those things you see in others they would be in you.
    Shine Bright and give yourself permission to be great and let go of all past things they don’t define who you truly are.

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  5. dominica8

    oh Darlin’Sista!! Allow yourself to be you! You deserve it! I have been focussing on this too, on the ‘allowing to give myself true love, gratitude and recognition for who I truly am and my creative expression of it, because I deserve it’, AS WELL as ‘allowing myself to receive and accept true love, gratitude and recognition for who I truly am and my creative expression of it FROM MYSELF and my surroundings, because I deserve it’. Gradually made and still is making the change for me. And indeed, dive into those sits, ‘Hearing andTrusting the Truth of Your Heart, Believing it, and acting upon it spontaneously’…….. You’re simply diving layers and layers deeper, that’s why it seems to be the same battle over and over again, but it’s not. Since you are so dedicated, deeper stuff comes up that has to be transformed, and on, and on…. enJoy the process anyway, more and more, on and on… and make more and more brilliant artwork out of it! xxx

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    1. masterkeybrony Post author

      Thanks Lovely… there seem to be sooo many layers….. as I have been on this journey now for a long time… but I do like the way you say.. the deeper stuff is coming up… to be transformed. yay! I’ll just keep plodding away…..x.x.x.x.

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  6. masterkeyrea

    Brony,-(what is your first name?)
    You are not alone in the journey. We all suffer at times with the same FEELINGS. That is the problems. What we feel and who we are is 2 totally different things. The EGO is pulling you back into the familiar and your heart is allowing that. Hence the doubt.Taking action of the weight of a feather against the world’s weight of crap. You will win every time. We tend to crucify ourselves between Regret/past & Fear/future. Since Now is all there is. Stay there and just know what you feel is not what or who you are.
    Emotions are great motivators both good and bad. Yet still you are in control of them when you look to the choice you have between the stimulus and response.
    We are still working on aligning the mastermind after Mark J did the continuation video so that we are gear more in the tune of focusing on the Target/Goal ( I prefer the word Target and not Goal) and not just being a group of friends being together.

    Robert

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